Ethereal
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MatureOngoing14m
Last published Tue, May 16, 2023
My name is Adeline.
I have gone undiagnosed for years.
That doesn't mean I don't have an eating disorder. It just means I haven't reached out for help.
Maybe I should have.
I've always wanted to be skinny, perfect... ethereal, even. I've never gotten there.
But that doesn't mean I won't stop trying.
This story contains graphic material related to eating disorders. Please do not read this story if you are sensitive to this topic.
You deserve a life without an eating disorder. You deserve recovery.
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