I feel like i've lost years i haven't lived-September

This story is not always going to make sense, ive been sporadically writing it for the past year ish and its more of a vent book then something to be taken seriously. Im sure between the months alot of details have been missed or forgotten, but i have tried to stay as consistent as possible despite.

The full story is stretched out over a few different books. All under the same title "I feel like i've lost years i haven't lived yet"

Trigger warning: Eating disorders, Sexual assault, Rape, Violence, Severe abuse, kidnapping, Basically anything that you could think may be talked about in the book, it probably is.

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"Is this finally my life? Do i hold it with both hands? Do i try to live?"

Carson is a child who has been in and out of the system for years. Her history leaves something more to be desired from life. More that she can never seem to reach. Atleast, not until she meets Phil and his family, that is.

Phil is a man packed full of grief. Having watched his wife die right in front of him in a devestating car accident, he found himself unsure of if he was still fit to raise his boys. Hell, Phil was unsure of alot now a days. So when he got the call asking if he was willing to take in a severely abused young girl, Phil almost said no. But when he looked down at the three boys sitting in his living room, laughing at a random cartoon on an early sunday morning.. Phil couldn't find it in himself to say no to taking the girl.

Would this family work out and become a home?

Or would Carson be doomed to dift around foster care until she, inevitably, turned eighteen?

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Once again i am in no way a professional nor do i ever intend to be. Alot of these chapters are slightly based on some experiences ive had, specifically family, sibling, and or friends wise. I use this book as a way to vent my feelings on alot of situations i have personally experienced, while still trying to make it make some sort of sense.