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Darkest addiction

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Time 1h 33m

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agegap darkromance drugaddict frustration hatred menacing mentaldisorder moodswing obsession pain possessive

Have you ever wondered why you ever existed in this fucked up world and made every attempt to end your misery by taking your life. Carla Holland is the perfect example, going through pain, misery, betrayal and addiction are too much for her to handle which made her psychotic and abnormal. 
The once sweet, normal and cute Carla had turned crazy, numb and cold.  She is despised by everyone around her like her mom, older sis, her bestie then the whole school. Carla didn't  know who to turn to when going through pain and her mental health is slipping away, so she finds comfort in taking drugs to feel numb and not giving a fuck with what's going on. Not until she met him Zephyr Adler who also went through being an addict, he help her pull through but the question is does she wanna be helped or better still wanna end up being an addict forever.

Zeph cornered me on the wall beside the door, then he shuts the door really hard and damn I could feel his breath on my face.
"You aren't leaving not when am here do you understand" he warned, I couldn't concentrate not when his eyes are lingered on my lips or his hardened cock touching my laps. 
Is he hard for me or am just feeling things?
"You don't command me Zeph, know your fucking place" I gritted through my teeth, he grabbed my chin pulling my face closer to his, almost kissing me.
"I gets to command you every fucking time Carla, I mean it when I said am gonna help you pull through even if fucking your pussy with my tongue or fucking you really slow and hard until you forgets the word drug, do you understand" he whispered directly on my lips.
I clenched my thigh in arousal and lust, what's is Zephyr Adler doing to me, why does his dirty words usually gets me horny every fucking time?. I loathed his presence but yet I still wants him closer every fucking time and its scares me sometimes.All Rights Reserved

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