First first

I lost my virginity to a guy I met online and got my first kiss which was sentimental to me, wish I could say the same for him. I was scared of what was going to happen hence I'm new to everything. On my way to his house all I could think of was how I was going to die. I waited outside for about 5minutes and then came the guy who I was talking to on grindr. Before we met he said he wasn't looking for a relationship or anything of that sort. Being new and not knowing what I wanted I said okay and when with the flow of things. He opened the door for me and we both walked up to his apartment. We when in a room and he laid me down, I mention to him that I was scared and he said "there's nothing to worry about I got you."
It was really dark but when he came over me he looked me straight in the eyes and I looked back directly in his eyes. He then slowly kissed my lips and from that moment I had a "zing" with him. I felt all my loneliness rushing out of me and in came happiness, love, safety and him.