ECCEDENTESIAST | a book to me and my problems
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Eccedentesiast - someone who hides pain behind a smile
This book is just me writing whats happening in my life because no one listens to me
⚠️TW THIS BOOK (MAY) CONTAIN⚠️
- bipolar disorder
- anxiety
- depression
- self harm
- suicide
- attempts of suicide
- death
- cussing
- hallucinations
To anyone reading this, im sorry
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