Pavane for a Lost Boy (Or Rather, How to Survive Loss after Rejection)
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Demario Bader, after a failed suicide attempt, struggles with self-esteem issues as he adapts to being in a group home, overcomes the scars of his past, and finds love.
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My name is Demario Bader. And if you think that being a Black teenager is bad while living in Dallas; then take a look into my uncharmed life.
1. I have a dysfunctional family that relies on favoritism over unity. And they loved being bass-ackwards and belly-up as much as they hated me for being straightforward and straitlaced.
2. My domineering mother hated me for being the middle child that she never wanted while my father was a hen-pecked husband who agreed with her on everything she said bad about me.
3. I wasn't bullied in high school, yet I never had any friends (much less bullies) or mentors on my side.
4. And just recently, I had lost my parents, older sisters, and younger brothers to a freak accident before being disowned and my relatives (who were as bad as my mother) never offered to take me into their homes.
So where does that leave me? Preparing to end my life with a bottle of antidepressants and some of my father's vodka. But fate in the form of my landlord, my court-ordered therapist, my foster family, and a new love interest had other plans for me.
Fate, you had screwed me over one time too many. But I might as well take advantage of this do-over. So...this is your last chance as well as it is mine.
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Started: June 7th, 2023
Finished: December 19th, 2023
Total Word Count: 126,752 words!
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"Why weren't you answering your phone Lou?" He asked with an angry tone. "i-i was in c-class so i couldn't answer the c-call" I said lowering my head down. "That's a terrible excuse Lou" he said with a cold look in his eyes. I took a step back and he took a step forward towering over my small frame. "B-but it's the truth" I said with my voice shaky. He place his hand under my chin making me look into his eyes "No..no..no..you could've called me when your class was over but instead you went and hang out with your friends." He replied holding my chin firmly. "Lou you know what happens when you lie" his eyes began to darken, he looked like was ready to devour me. Louis Park is a sweet 17 year old boy. He's shy...kind...loving...caring he's gets good grades. He goes to an all boy's school and he have a fairly good amount of friends, he would be called an average highschooler. But what happens when a new kid moves in his neighborhood and starts to attend his school, would his life change for the better or the worse. Xavier Diez is 18 years old, he's cold and doesn't care about anyone. He gets good grades...he's quiet but deadly, his family is rich and he gets what he wants. But when he laid eyes on Louis he fell in love. " he's gonna be mine" he said to himself smirking. He acted sweet in front of Louis but secretly want to lock him away so no-one can lay eyes on his beauty. "He must be MINE, I must have HIM. Okay first of all I suck at writing description. Second this story is kind of fast-burn and well have some non-con and degrading but it will be good but also dark at the same time. Thirldly this will be a {boyxboy} so don't like don't read. There'll be typos and mis-punctuation. This book will be horribly good. Xavier is possessive and controlling its in his nature so read if your 18+ Enjoy!☺
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