his will to live (Sanegiyuu)

tomioka giyuu 20 years old his the water hashira for 2 years now, everyone thinks he must be living his best life, i mean being a hashira means he gets paid a lot of money and he can support his family but in reality his sick and tired of everything all he wants to do right now is go and jump off a cliff

his had those suicidal thoughts since he was 13 but now with his life as a hashira those thoughts are becoming stronger and stronger and his starting to give up on life.