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If Ever (COMPLETED - EDITING)

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Stella has been through a traumatic experience. She has been numb and quiet for 7 months and unsure and angry and grieving. She is not sure of her place in the world now that most of her family are gone... Why did she live? She has a twin in the hospital and she herself has state mandated therapy. Stella has lost all hope in life. Everything she dreamed, was now ash on the wind. Her love for art and her future hang in the balance. 
Then, Kai Walker shows up to the same support group therapy Stella's in,  just when she is at her lowest. She hates his deep green penetrating eyes that seem to know her better than she does.  But, for some reason, he, is what gives her the strength to say, screw it, maybe she wants to live. But Stella and Kai's trauma run deep and their demons keep coming back to haunt them.  Can they be there for each other while the other falls apart? 
This story is about love and loss and heartbreak, as it is about trauma, PTSD and surviving and living with the aftermath of death and sexual abuse.

Explicit scenes and adult content!!!! Here's your fair warning.All Rights Reserved

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Sophia is sat in a bar with only a large glass of wine for company, quietly nursing a broken heart. When a charismatic stranger approaches her, he's not only confidently funny, smart and intriguing... he's undeniably attractive. That night, for the first time in a very long while, Sophia feels womanly and wanted. This mysterious stranger not only makes her laugh, he ignites something within the very unwanted parts of herself. He ignites something that makes her willingly want to go against all that she thinks she is. ~ Cade Lapley is a ruthless barrister: equally so in his personal life. He is suave, sophisticated and wealthy, with emotional baggage almost as big as his oversized ego. When he meets the just dumped, Sophia Hale, he finds himself inexplicably drawn to her. He is feeling something, and Cade Lapley just doesn't do feelings of any kind. Yet somehow, this lost-looking woman ignites something within him; a place that has been dark and uncaring ever since he was a little boy. He knows he is playing with an emotional fire, and will more than likely only get his fingers badly burnt. Yet still, Cade finds himself unable to leave this woman alone. He knows he should. Not only for Sophia's sake, but more selfishly for his. Only, he can't. One man. One woman. Together.... Ignitable. DOES CONTAIN SWEAR WORDS & SCENES OF INTIMATE AND GRAPHIC NATURE IGNITABLE Published by K B Mallion Copyright © 2017 K B Mallion