why im (dead)

it starts with a crush but then I get crushed my whole entire life gone kapoof!! All because I couldn't speak up I'm so stupid how could I let it end up this way how!!!! I actually liked someone aLot And it gets ruined by a little mishap in words augh now Im alone alone I tell you alone!!!! so what happens is I'm dating some one and I send up having an amazing relationship and im talking to my energetic friend and I say what if I were to break up with him what would I do I would never be able to and I said wouldn't that be bad and she said I would break up with him for you I said really she said yes and I tried to stop her but it was to late and he wouldn't talk time afterwards so it ended up like this now I have a school dad I came to notice im all alone and I have a major crush but he's already dating my friend and everyone is dating and I'm a loner and I yelled at my dad a he won't talk to me and now I'm crying and I can't fix it and I'm dead and I can't get over it this all just so