actions of regret - akitoya.
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  • Reads 22,702
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  • Parts 25
  • Time 1h 16m
Ongoing, First published May 30, 2023
akito finds himself falling deeper and deeper into depression picking up unhealthy coping mechanisms along to way. after a suicide attempt everything changes, how will he recover? 


there is going to be triggering topics within this fic. 
such as:
 self-harm, attempted suicide, implied sa, cyberbullying, paranoid hallucinations (hearing voices) and eating disorders.
don't force yourself to read this if you find yourself too sensitive to the topics, take care.
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