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Again

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Reads 143
Votes 24
Parts 6
Time 1h 51m

Mature

Serenity is struggling.

Living with OCD isn't easy, especially when no one knowns about it. Everyday life is a struggle, with constant disturbing thoughts, 2 annoying sisters, stale friendships and frustrating people at school. 

She checks, writes, washes, touches, waits, hoards, organises, flattens, reads, rewinds, counts.
Again.
And again.
And again.

But that's not all. There's deep, dark, revolting, heinous thoughts that invade her mind, the place that no one will ever visit, a place that no one will ever discover.

Except for Ivan.

Their families are getting along and they have no choice but to be around each other, no matter how much they hate it and no matter Serenity's struggles.

But no one knows that Ivan's struggling too . . .

Warnings:
-  OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
- anxiety
- panic attacks
- bullying
- self harm
- insomnia 
- body dysmorphia
- mentions of suicide and suicidal thoughts
- depression
- emotional and verbal abuse
- swearing and mild violence

(Seems a bit daunting but it's spread throughout the book and isn't as overwhelming as it looks.)

Slow updates but long chapters.All Rights Reserved

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