TELL ME

Some times I feel like I'm always left out in some ways I don't know why I feel that I'm not equal with everyone else like I'm not as skinny as they are or my hair doesn't look as amazing as theirs or that my appearance isnt important than theirs they are my best friends but am I theirs am I important to them as much as they are important to me and I being used in a way do I always have to be last choice when their always first some say I am lucky to be friends with them cause they are pretty and I'm not and only pretty people should hang out with them and when I'm in need of friends no ones around to listen but when theirs in need of friends everyone comes and focuses all on them I don't want to but this is the truth but it is I don't want to face reality and rather pretend everything's alright because it's easier to put on a fake smile than to show my feelings I want everyone to treat me the same as them but I don't really want to keep my hopes up to high or who knows I'm lost