Life < Death
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Life is less than death. To Ella Death is a better choice than life.
All she wants to do is leave.
Nothing for her is left. Only for the voice of Tilly in her head.
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Ella, 18 years old. first year in college. Struggling to fight her battle. The voice in her head doesn't help. Grew up with a spilt family with her mom leaving her and her dad to fight for themselves at the age of 6. But Ella's dad turns into a drug-addict, alcoholic, and an abusive father.
No other family is around, or existing to help Ella. She is stuck, alone, with scars.
Ella is searching and praying for a breakthrough in this horrible time in her life. Does it get better, or worse? Does she end up killing herself? Will she be alone? How will she fend for herself?
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A little disclaimerrrrrr
- I don't write smut- Its very uncomfortable , so scram dirty minded folks..LOL I might right make out scenes? To be determined...
- I am some what of a funny person so I might make jokes in this book-
- this is an ongoing story so bare with me. Writing takes a lot out of you lol.
- talks about death and suicide/suicidal thoughts
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