No Boyfriend Diary

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Parts 6
Time 41m

Reads 1,674
Votes 64
Parts 6
Time 41m

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Dear Diary,

Everybody thinks that I am some shit hole psycho that never liked someone before. That I don't even get attracted to guys for seems like forever. That thing is a fact -well I believe half of it-. I mean, guys are cute and charming but they freak the hell out of me and I don't even know why. Weird right? You may start thinking that I'm crazy, weird and a lunatic. Some of you might also say that I have some serious issues already. But I don't care, this is just me I guess.

Anyways, guys are douche, who needs them? All they do is use their stupid charms to make girls fall in love with them and at the end they'll just break her heart, move on and forget about her like nothing really happen between them. You may say not all the guys are like this but for me all of them are just the same. They are all players who plays a girl's feelings without even caring. 

This is one of the reasons why I still don't have a boyfriend. I am afraid to fall in love or even worse, I am too scared to be heartbroken. Can't we just love someone without hurting? Without feeling the pain? Can we just be happy and carefree all the time when we are in love? Unfortunately it's impossible. When we fall in love we also get hurt. It's part of the deal. 

Maybe I'll end up being a nun or even worse being alone... forever. Who even wants that? I don't but I told you I hate guys and relationships and love. Geez, I am so confusing. Sorry. 

To be honest, I still wonder on how does it feels to be in love, or to even like someone? I'm still a girl, I wanna know how it feels. Will I ever be ready about this stupid thing? When will it be? Whatever. I still have to do my homework. Adios and Goodnight. 

Love, AverieAll Rights Reserved

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