Secrets I Have Held In My Heart
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Last published Thu, Jan 16, 2025
She can tell those three words turn me on and I know she's trying to hide a smile. Slowly, her hand travels up my chest, starting at my lower abdomen, and working up to the center-making me want to shiver at her light caress. She sticks out her finger, digging it straight into my chest while opening her mouth and saying, "You're pathetic."
I can't take it anymore and my hands rush to the sides of her face, sliding under her hair to hold her head steady. "This," I gesture to the both of us, this tension between our two bodies. "I want you to know that this means nothing." and my lips fall downward and my breath hitches, colliding with hers.
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