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IM NOT A MONSTER GET THAT STRAIGHT Me me me it's never about me not a ruby how are you no ruby how was school NOT EVEN A FUCKING HELLO I'm an empty core unwanted unloved worthless emotionless empty core my best friend only friend besides my sisters is Tammy hopely which is strange cause she's more hopeless then me trying to survive high school and my crazy family is hard way too hard this is my story my life for once it's about me all focused around me (reminder this is a story most events have not happened to me in real life sota twlight fan fiction)
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