To live is to die

this is a poem it is about something that happened to me something I did not talk about much because I did not know how to capture the emotions and the feelings of the event in words until now. I don't expect anyone to believe what I describe in the poem for they could not understand the complexity of the event unless it happened to them. It is true though it happened and the feelings where real and there where many times after that I wanted the feelings back.