Journal #1
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Complete Mon, Mar 9, 2015<5 mins
Never have I felt so alone in all my life. I think about it everyday. I just want it all to end. All the bullshit, all the depression, everything. I sit in bed and think of ways to do it. But even if I try it will never work. Sometimes sparks of happiness comes when someone comes into my life, but every single one of them hurts me and it brings me right back down. I don't know, maybe I'm destined to be alone and unhappy forever. That is if I live that long.
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For years, I've been writing in silence, creating worlds, characters, and stories that lived only in the margins of my notebooks and tucked-away folders on my computer. Writing has always been my escape, something I've done for myself-a way to step out of reality for a moment and breathe through the lives of the people I've imagined. I've written and rewritten countless stories, always hesitant to share them, never quite confident enough to let anyone else peek into the depths of my mind. It's always felt like just a hobby, something personal, something safe. But deep down, I've carried a quiet dream of becoming a writer, even though it felt a little foolish to hope for something so big. Now, after pouring myself into this story for what feels like a lifetime, I've finally done it-I've uploaded all my chapters to Wattpad, sharing this piece of me with the world. I know I still have so much to learn, and I'm always striving to get better, but I would truly appreciate any feedback-good, constructive criticism that can help me grow. This is just the beginning, but it feels like a huge step forward. Thank you for taking a chance on this book. Whatever brought you here, whether it was curiosity, a recommendation, or just a moment of wandering, I am truly grateful.
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