Tonight laying down on my bed listening to Sara Bareilles I choose you. I suddenly just thought to write a story, this story i'm writing is about how i feel every night, and i hope ya'll can relate to me in somehow :) enjoy it and leave it a like and a comment bellow of what ya'll think or say about it.
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I feel so lonely,
I feel like I'm missing a very big part of me,
I feel like drowning in my own blood,
I feel like broken into a million pieces.
I know that this isn't it, this isn't all my life, I know that I have to do something, something to make my life colourful again, but I don't know where to start ,
I feel so stocked!
I feel like everything is falling down on me, I don't know what is pulling me back but it's so heavy I can't even put up on one step to step forward.
I need help!
I need someone to make me feel that I'm not invisible, but maybe I'm just thinking it all in my head that I need someone to get out of this, maybe........
I just need to realize that its me, myself is the only way to get out of this dark hole and get on my feet again, continue what I started and keep going.
ops i had to end it there,
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I hope you guys to stick around and see what is the next interesting and relatable story of "I'm feeling tonight" is.
-Jamie.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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