Forever and Always

HER..

Nothing. Nothing in this world is compulsory. Neither happiness nor suffering or anything. Everything and everyone has a fixed time. Then no matter what it has to go. But this. My life. These nightmares. Suffering. Fear. It is permanent. It keeps digging its claws deeper into my mind. My heart. My conscience.

No matter how much I try. This darkness inside me is forever.

Until. I saw. Him. Feeling as if the darkness he is hiding is similar but not so similar to mine.
And I am ready to look for the light in his darkness more like I have to.
But he looks cold like the terrors have made his heart into ice. Eyes empty void of any emotions.
But I will crack is facade. His cold and hard exterior.

Even if it is the last thing I do.

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HIM..

Darkness. Pain suffering are the only truths of this ugly world. And I have lived it. More like I was born into it. Knowing about it from a quite a young age. Terror is the only thing I have known. Growing up.

And that night is etched into my mind like a scene on repeat. Not only that night lots of nights. Similar.

But she. I dont know what is this growing attraction kind of thing for her inside me. I have to stop. I don't want to drag her into my hell of a life. She can't be a part of it. I will make sure of it.

Even if I have to lose myself to do so.