The Life Of Me
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Ongoing8m
Last published Tue, May 26, 2015
This is my personal journal. I've been struggling with depression for the last 6 years. I've never told anyone. Sometimes it gets better. But then I fall right back where I started. This is what happens to people go through their lives with no one to help them. I'm sorry of this triggers anyone. ~ Ant Montgomery
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"Its been one year and eight months since, and now all of a sudden you bring her up, why now? Out of all days?" I ask Jake sincerely. "I can see the act your putting up in front of everyone. The recklessness and all. You can get away with all of that with everyone else, but you can't fool me Bil," Jake tells me concerningly. "Why does it matter? I moved on, I have Drew. I'm not stuck on her anymore. Clearly - I've proven that by now," I say to Jake. "Do you mean that sincerely?" Jake asks me. I huff before looking back at Jake. "Yes. I do," I say to him truthfully. "Alright well. Finneas decided that it was best that I'd break the news to you," Jake says before sitting up in his seat. I look at him with my eyebrows furrowed, and suddenly a deep trench of anxiety forms in the pit of my stomach. "What is it?" I ask him. He hesitates before speaking. "Lilith is coming back to LA to work on the stage crew," Jake says. My eyes slightly widen. Fuck. ~~~ A year has gone by and now Lilith is back. Although a reunion is coming up, a year can change a person drastically, and as they say, change is inevitable. Will Lilith be able to reconnect with Billie? Or is it seemingly hopeless? Will Lilith finally remember Billie? Or did change form Lilith into a completely different person? ~~~ (This is the Second Book to the first book called 'Sweet Belladonna'. I highly recommend you go back to read the first one before continuing on reading this one, or else you'll be majorly confused.) ~~~ AU (Alternate Universe); Though some characters are real, this is fiction. Keep that in mind. Will contain explicit language, depression, anxiety episodes, violence, smoking, drinking, trauma, drugs, and real-life events that occur. +18 Votes and Comments help me a ton, so please feel free to do so.![white ferrari [Billie Eilish]](https://img.wattpad.com/cover/249676143-256-k729106.jpg)
white ferrari [Billie Eilish]
You're 16 and already a celebrity. Your songs get played more and more everyday and you get recognized alot. Great right? Nope. Your best friend dies in a car crash and depression kicks in. You don't see a point in living. Until you meet a wonderful person. But will you be able to keep that person happy?... Snippet: "Doctor: "I'm sorry to tell you that Drew has passed away"" *TW: mentions of depression and suicide **Every chapter has a quote. The quote does not always have to do something with the events in the chapter, but it's more for your motivation in life.Complete
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"You've never listened to my music before? What the fuck, how?" Billie asked confused. "As I said, I just never got a chance to listen to it I guess," I replied sheepishly chuckling, rubbing the back of my neck nervously. "Well, that changes today," Billie said surprised but excited. She got up from the couch anxiously and grabbed my hand, causing me to get up from the couch and follow her, still hand in hand. ~~~ Can a Celebrity/Singer-Songwriter really fall in love with a roadie? Can somebody really fall in love with a nobody? ~~~ AU (Alternate Universe); Though some characters are real, this is fiction. Keep that in mind. Will contain explicit language, depression, anxiety episodes, violence, smoking, drinking, trauma, and real-life events that occur. +18 Votes and Comments help me a ton, so please feel free to do so. ~~~ Rankings: #1 on #roadie ; 10/26/20 #1 on #patrickoconnell ; 12/25/20 #1 on #maggiebaird ; 12/28/20 #1 on #messages ; 12/30/20 #1 on #touring ; 6/15/21 #1 on #finneas ; 7/10/22 #3 on #tour ; 4/1/22 #3 on #billie ; 12/02/23 #5 on #singer-songwriter ; 12/21/20 #7 on #billieeilish ; 12/21/20 #7 on #messaging ; 12/30/20Complete
Unraveled
*Completely Edited!* Everyone's done something in their life that they wish they could change. For me, it started a couple years ago. Have you ever felt all alone? Like no one in the world cares? So, if you have, you feel like cutting yourself, like, well absolutely depressed. It started in seventh grade for me, only 13 years old and wanting to feel like I was dead. I shouldn't have done a lot of the stuff that I did, but I did them anyway. Screw the consequences was my motto. Maybe I could have handled it differently, no I most definitely could have handled everything differently. I felt like no one cared but, people do care it would be against human nature for them not to care. You have your friends, family, schoolmates, and even your pets. Try to take your life into account, imagine what could happen if you handle the situation one way or another. That's just my advice though. This is my story.Complete
You're Supposed To Be//Billie Eilish
"oh my god, help. i'm dead. her eyes. her eyes, dude." ----- obviously willow had heard of the famous billie eilish already, i mean, how could you not. but until then she'd never really cared who that eilish-girl was. scarred from her past, willow liked the new feeling of being appreciated and soon falls for the singer. although billie herself, has struggles to come clear with her own and new feelings for the other girl. are they supposed to be? ----- - strong language - brief mentions of suicide and depression - smut ----- achieved: 2 in #lesbian (april 2022) 4 in #gxg (july 2022) 2 in #billieeilish (august 2022) 1 in #wlw (august 2022) 1 in #concert (december 2022) 3 in #billie (march 2023) 1 in #finneas (april 2023)Complete
After Senior Year.
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A Lovely Life
Journey with me back in time as I rewrite the first Journal I kept from when I was in high school, and see that maybe even with how horrible life is most of the times, there are little things spread throughout that make life worth living. My high school experience was full of drama, tears, laughter, and most of all constant search of love, and approval of the people around me. I can't always get what I want in this world. Life is a beautiful mess. It's not perfect, and filled with a lot of disappointments, and heartbreak. There are moments when it all feels too much, but there's not much we can do other than go with the flow of things.Complete
Trauma Ruined My LIfe (The Real-Life Journal Of An Abuser)
It was October 2023, and my now-ex-fiance had moved out of our trailer for good. I decided to end our relationship and thought I had emotionally moved on from them. I was wrong-dead wrong. What followed them moving out was something I could not have ever thought to experience. I began to experience extreme mood swings, controlling behavior, self-esteem issues, and a new-found addiction to alcohol. This was just the tip of the iceberg, as I was constantly flirting with suicide on a daily basis. I could not begin to even tell you about how I went through an emo phase, a "man hoe" phase, and multiple other phases as well due to my deteriorating mental health. I began to document my everyday life after our split through two separate journals over a twelve-month span. This is the true tale of how a breakup brought me to the realization that I was an abuser and that I became the same monster that I swore not to become as a kid. This is how trauma ruined my life, and how it will ruin yours too.Complete
"Its been one year and eight months since, and now all of a sudden you bring her up, why now? Out of all days?" I ask Jake sincerely. "I can see the act your putting up in front of everyone. The recklessness and all. You can get away with all of that with everyone else, but you can't fool me Bil," Jake tells me concerningly. "Why does it matter? I moved on, I have Drew. I'm not stuck on her anymore. Clearly - I've proven that by now," I say to Jake. "Do you mean that sincerely?" Jake asks me. I huff before looking back at Jake. "Yes. I do," I say to him truthfully. "Alright well. Finneas decided that it was best that I'd break the news to you," Jake says before sitting up in his seat. I look at him with my eyebrows furrowed, and suddenly a deep trench of anxiety forms in the pit of my stomach. "What is it?" I ask him. He hesitates before speaking. "Lilith is coming back to LA to work on the stage crew," Jake says. My eyes slightly widen. Fuck. ~~~ A year has gone by and now Lilith is back. Although a reunion is coming up, a year can change a person drastically, and as they say, change is inevitable. Will Lilith be able to reconnect with Billie? Or is it seemingly hopeless? Will Lilith finally remember Billie? Or did change form Lilith into a completely different person? ~~~ (This is the Second Book to the first book called 'Sweet Belladonna'. I highly recommend you go back to read the first one before continuing on reading this one, or else you'll be majorly confused.) ~~~ AU (Alternate Universe); Though some characters are real, this is fiction. Keep that in mind. Will contain explicit language, depression, anxiety episodes, violence, smoking, drinking, trauma, drugs, and real-life events that occur. +18 Votes and Comments help me a ton, so please feel free to do so.
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