i let myself get in this facade again, oh my stupid self(heart)
how many time will i need to be defame?
you thought this time will be different ha!
things will change ,he will change
this time he won't hurt you
but who are you kidding ha
when he didn't thought for hurting you once ,breaking you
do you think he ever will
how naive stupid i am
thing which never happened to me
how i thought this time will be different
how i thought people like me will ever get that
it doesn't matter ,i don't expect
no ,i do expect every time thinks happen,i expect you to be there beside me, that this time you will listen to my unspoken words ,my pain by my eyes
but you didn't again and sgain
and one day i don't know when exactly , but i stop looking for you beside me or showing my pain though my eyes to you
i stopped expecting because you stopped giving me hope that this time you might notice it in my silence
it doesn't matter anymore ,it did matter once belive me but not anymore
now all space in my heart which was filled by emotion -hurt ,anger ,love,pain,happinesss,sorrow
now it all empty, it nothing but a void which is there
As Dallas and Drayton navigate life in the spotlight, Spencer is navigating intense feelings for Nathan - her best friend's brother.
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Dallas and Drayton are planning their wedding, talking babies and learning how to navigate life in LA now that Drayton is a hotshot football player in the big leagues. Meanwhile, Spencer and Nathan are back at home in Colorado, coming to terms with their feelings for one another and learning how to co-parent with Grayson, the father of Spencer's daughter. Will the realities of adult life strengthen them - or will their relationships break?
[Sequel to The QB Bad Boy and Me]
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