Husband's Ex Wife

i let myself get in this facade again, oh my stupid self(heart)
how many time will i need to be defame?
you thought this time will be different ha!
things will change ,he will change
this time he won't hurt you
but who are you kidding ha
when he didn't thought for hurting you once ,breaking you
do you think he ever will
how naive stupid i am

thing which never happened to me
how i thought this time will be different
how i thought people like me will ever get that

it doesn't matter ,i don't expect
no ,i do expect every time thinks happen,i expect you to be there beside me, that this time you will listen to my unspoken words ,my pain by my eyes
but you didn't again and sgain
and one day i don't know when exactly , but i stop looking for you beside me or showing my pain though my eyes to you
i stopped expecting because you stopped giving me hope that this time you might notice it in my silence

it doesn't matter anymore ,it did matter once belive me but not anymore
now all space in my heart which was filled by emotion -hurt ,anger ,love,pain,happinesss,sorrow
now it all empty, it nothing but a void which is there