Adam Hixx is a cool guy. In a small Louisiana town like his, being a Christian, straight, brash delinquent with a douchebag crony and a hot girlfriend is the recipe for popularity. Life's going great for Cool Adam.
But not for Regular Adam.
Being gay and having the nerve to doubt his family's religion sparks anger in him. Rage fueled by years of abuse, both exterior and within himself. Rage that comes out in violence towards his childhood best friend, whom he wished so desperately to be with again... At least, until he came out as gay.
Love and hate battle in this heart-breaking, gut-wrenching, bittersweet story of overcoming abusive backgrounds, learning to let go, and even learning that maybe, having emotions isn't as bad as it's chalked up to seem.
Cool Adam will just have to wait and see.
Trigger warning: Severe homophobia, alcoholism, abusive relationships, slight suggestions of sexual assault, suicide, self harm, homicide.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 988 or 1-800-273-8255. (U.S. and its territories only.)
Content warning: Swearing, slurs, and sexual/suggestive content.
I'm falling...
Falling, helplessly and inevitably; completely at the mercy of the forces dragging me down. Having to trust in an entity's blind intentions and praying to God that they won't let me hit the ground. It's an incredible and horrifying feeling.
A feeling that I live for.
And I have realized that having something to live for makes you all the more scared of dying.
(Constant uploads, and even more editing to older uploads)