light at the end of the tunnel (dean Winchester x reader)

"its like there's a light at the end of the tunnel"... ..."that's hellfire dean"
You were a British hunter, your name was (y/n) Milliarden, you had moved from the uk to america when you were 17 to get away from your father but you had to leave you siblings, mother and grandparents behind which broke your heart. But you did it for not only their safety, but your own as your father was never kind to you, he had raised you to be a soldier and broke down any hope you had to be a normal child, he had made you believe you weren't loveable, but your grandparents always showed you love and your grandma eventually started teaching you how to properly hunt supernatural beings when you were 15, after years of begging. But when you got to america when you were 17 you had the urge to hunt down your father and kill him, but you couldn't face him again... not willingly anyway
Whilst along the road you slowly developed feelings for the older Winchester, him going to hell for 4 months helped you think about your feelings and you came to a shocking realisation when sam points it out later, but with "gods plan" and now angels, how long are you willing to wait for him?