how you touch my soul from the outside

Why would you like me after everything that has happened, after what everyone thinks, after how hard I pushed you away just like I did everyone? I'm so so sorry. god I'm sorry. I--- why are you still here?

Because I love you. "I love when you cry when you read a sad part in a book...that your heart breaks at the sight of broken butterfly wings. I love the little love notes you leave in your best friend's locker so I beg Lyra please stay that way and don't let the weight of the world change your peace and trouble your arcadian mind and soul."