My "LIFE"

My "LIFE"

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Ongoing28m

Last published Fri, Jul 10, 2015

death drama sad shortstory suicide

I lay on the floor pale not breathing its such a weird feeling. Ive never had before. Did i actually do the deed of dying???

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I call this a beautiful journey of my lifeless existence. I don't know what's happening, but I seem to be living my life all over again, in my mind. It feels so real but seems like a dream to me. I'm confused, lost, worried, but I hope to find answers to what truly went wrong.

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