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the well known DJ Alex Mattson has secretly made out with his bandmate Joel Hokka on the last day of tour at a hotel room, while been drunker than he probably should.

Joel on the other hand doesn't think it's a big deal, but deep down he knows things will change. the kiss has finally opened his eyes and he's realizing he's not only attracted by women. he's also freaking out. as everyone knows, Joel Hokka is not really ready for a change. not a change like this.

all that while everyone is still on the party. as both of them are trying to figure out their feelings, they don't know Olli has seen them kissing at the door.

everything in the two artists' world changes. will it have an impact on their bandmates and family's life? what will fans say when they find out? will everything be as smooth as it was before?

‼️ TW: depression, anxiety, SH mentions, homophobia, bullyingAll Rights Reserved

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Sweet Secrets by januarygloom__

21 year old Alex is a unique person. His pronouns are he/him, but sometimes he was just flat out confused. Overall, he'd decided that he/him fit him best, despite the fact that his biggest secret lies underneath his clothes and inside his bedroom. He has a crush on the boy from the shop across the way from his shop in the mall, they'd been staring at each other, smiling and winking sometimes here and there, but neither of them had asked the other out, let alone introduced themselves. Alex wanted to pluck up the courage to do so, but what if this guy wasn't even gay? More importantly, what if on the off chance he was interested in Alex, he found out Alex's secret and hated him for it? TWs in advance: There is smut, plenty of it, as well as self harm, homophobia, panic attacks

Alex and Felix (LGBT) ✅ by mickey2k14

University was meant to be a new start, a place where Alex was open about his bisexuality. But meeting his confidently gay flatmate, Scotty, makes Alex hesitate. He's not that kind of brave and he coming out is harder than he thought. So, when he meets Felix, who's also gay, Alex lets him think he's straight. How was he to know Felix would become his best friend, and how can he tell him as more and more time goes by? It really isn't a problem, until Alex's stupid heart falls in love. Or the I'm-straight-he's-gay trope from the 'straight' boy's perspective.

My Henry by EstaWatts

A drunken night, a forbidden kiss, a lost love, hasty works spoken that can't be unheard. Alex makes a stupid mistake, Henry insecurities compounds it. Are they able to make it back to them or is everything they fought for going to crumble under the weight? *Reworked & Renamed*Warning there might be a bit of spice.

The Last Piece | BoyxBoy [COMPLETE] by majestic-

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THE JOCK JUST WANTS THE NERD [2] by THEVINCENTNOAH

(finished) Part 2: Don't you hate it when you thought you were done with your conflicting feelings, suddenly you have them coming back to you when you least expect it?, when you develop feelings for someone you think you have no chances with, when people think that those feelings aren't accepted by society, when you can't get your crush to notice you, then you feel like the world just crumbles around you when things just don't work out the way how you wanted it to be? I... I like him... But there's just so much shit going on that I don't know if I can bring myself to be with him... ...So I'm writing down all of this in my journal to pour all my thoughts out... Because I just need to express these feelings out somehow... -Jackson #2 - closeted #76 - homo

Oh How Times Have Changed by llmusicsmyreligionll

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Nightmares by Gee_efh

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Forbidden Love [BxB] by MioMioWriting

"I need to stay by his side even if I hate him because that's the only way I can survive..." When Ryan Afshar's father faced financial difficulties, his family was forced to move to a new country. In this new country, homosexuality is a crime, forcing Ryan to hide his sexual identity to stay safe. But keeping a secret and adjusting to a new environment can be hard when you get entangled with bullies - especially when their actions can endanger both your safety and your secret. Can Ryan find a way to survive and keep his true self safe?... This is an original book of mine so please do not copy or I'll take legal action. Trigger warnings: Bullying, Homophobia, Sexual and Mental abuse, Sexual assault. Read with caution! . . .

Parasites (Kellic) by trashyalexx

(Kellic) (boyxboy) Kellin gets sexually assaulted by a friend he thought he was able to trust. The worst part? Vic comes home and hears them in the bedroom, thinking Kellin's just cheating on him, so, he leaves a note and takes off, leaving Kellin completely broken. Kellin and Vic both start bands, who become widely known across the world. Over the next 7 years, Kellin struggles to find the light again. He refuses to date anyone other than Vic, but he knows Vic would never love him again, so Kellin turns to his eating disorder to help him cope with the issues he has to deal with and take on in life. When Kellin and Vic meet for the second time, to create 'King for a Day' and go on tour together due to popular demand, will they stay awkward or will they be able to mend their broken relationship? {This story was inspired by a roleplay written by me and @KellicBro. Go check her out, she's fuckin' awesome.}

Wandering Fireflies by BellaCheshire

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Sweet Secrets

21 year old Alex is a unique person. His pronouns are he/him, but sometimes he was just flat out confused. Overall, he'd decided that he/him fit him best, despite the fact that his biggest secret lies underneath his clothes and inside his bedroom. He has a crush on the boy from the shop across the way from his shop in the mall, they'd been staring at each other, smiling and winking sometimes here and there, but neither of them had asked the other out, let alone introduced themselves. Alex wanted to pluck up the courage to do so, but what if this guy wasn't even gay? More importantly, what if on the off chance he was interested in Alex, he found out Alex's secret and hated him for it? TWs in advance: There is smut, plenty of it, as well as self harm, homophobia, panic attacks