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Borderline

amythestvampire

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Reads 579
Votes 162
Parts 61
Time 51m

amythestvampire

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Borderline is a collection of poems and vent work written by somebody with Borderline Personality Disorder. There is a huge trigger warning as a lot of the poems and vents are very raw and real emotions or experiences that can be triggering to those who are reading. This is an outlet for my thoughts and poetry I was too afraid to show my loved ones, but some may relate. Every thought and poem I have ever wrote will be in here so I have a healthy outlet to cope. To those who read, thank you for listening to my thoughts, even if it's only for a short period. To those who relate, I'm sorry and I hope you get better one day, and I am always here if you need somebody, even though I'm a stranger on the internet. I appreciate every comment, vote, view, etc. Thank you for reading and having a look into my disaster of a brain. 

IF POSTING A SCREENSHOT OR QUOTING ANYTHING WRITTEN IN THIS BOOK, GIVE CREDIT TO @AMYTHESTVAMPIRE ON WATTPAD. IT IS ALL MY OWN WORK AND THOUGHTS.All Rights Reserved

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Jesse's Girl (COMPLETE) by xHeatLifex

They had both been dealt enough tragedy in their short teenaged lives, more than anyone should ever have to endure. Will two self destructive teens coming together do more harm than good? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I don't know what came over me. The poor guy just asked if he could help and I went all 'crazy psycho bitch' on his ass. I couldn't breath. I needed water. I needed air. Fuck why was is it so hot in here. Was it the fact that the moment his hand left my skin I felt an unbearable need to feel his touch again or was it hearing him ask if I needed help that made me feel helpless and broken once again. I didn't know what it was but I felt like I was suffocating, like the jersey I was wearing was strangling every ounce of oxygen from body. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ * This story had been reviewed recently. There are now added scenes and further edits - 2024 *

Suicidal by kaii12321

This is the story of an abused teenage girl, Maddie. Her need to die has become overwhelming and she is trying to find a way to help herself before she does something she may regret. The story is told from her point of view as she recalls all that has happened to her. Maybe telling her story will help her, maybe not. This isn't just any other sob story. This is more realistic. You may even find yourself comparing your life to Maddie's while reading this story. Disclosure: I wrote this as a 13-year-old and the writing is definitely not up to my current standards, but I feel as though changing what I have already written would take away from the emotion I put into this story at 13 years old. If you'd like an updated and more well-written version, please read my other story entitled "Remembering". TW/CW: domestic violence, child abuse, sexual assault, depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation

Beyond Her Exterior by discriminative

She lived her life as if it was normal and everything was okay. But in reality, that was never the case, She was struggling. Her life wasn't as easy as she tried to make it seem. She went to school, pretending to be happy all the time so her friends didn't become suspicious. And then she went home, to watch her 'father' throw his life away as he shot up in his arm. She hated seeing him locking himself in the bathroom only to come out ten minutes later, high out of his mind. He scared her; He did weird things when he was like that. From walking into her room and just staring around and then leaving without saying a word, to yelling at her and throwing whatever was in arms reach at her. She was suffering, but she still tried to make herself look like she was okay. Nobody suspected anything odd going on in her life. Afterall, she was Alexis Deaken, Everyone believed her life was perfect. They evyed her, they believed she had everything. Little did they know that the second she left that school building everyday she was going home to something unimaginable.

Stale Words by Norscality

𝚂𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚎 𝚆𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 is an ongoing book and collection of poems and sonnets made by me, inspired by my thoughts, dreams, and personal experiences. As someone who lives with depression and anxiety, a lot of my thoughts are bound to not be very pleasant. But hey, some of them are quite philosophical and positive. But that's rare. Join me on my journey through sadness, happiness, curiosity, mystery, and so much more. I was inspired to make a collection of my poems, and I decided to just do it. Also, you should know that I will try to crack jokes or be funny in my serious poems. It's just how I am. Another thing, I do enjoy making things rhyme. Btw, some poems are going to be much better than others. My brain just works strangely. I also really hope my writing doesn't offend anyone. If it does, I do deeply apologize. I'm mainly just doing this all for myself. Just wanna get all my words saved somewhere. If my humor or anything else offends you, I am deeply sorry for that. Sometimes I just have no clue what I'm saying. I just type what's in my mind. Ps, this is not a cry for help. I'm doing fine, but I have dark thoughts. I can't help it. And to the person who a lot of these poems are based on, I am genuinely sorry. I never wish to write this type of stuff about anyone. This is just how I'm dealing with the pain you caused me. I know you'll never see this, but still. I hate being so hateful. That was always your thing.

Vital by -bites

Featured on @WattpadPoetry's reading list Stygian Skies and @CoffeeCommunity's Cappuccino reading list. A poetry book that trembles with fear, explodes with rage, and loves with everything it has. It tries to make sense of the past and explores trauma head on in an unfiltered way that leaves no room for denial. It's a documentation of my entire life, moments both sun kissed and dark. A book written with the new understanding that expressing how you feel is absolutely vital. Most of my poems come from personal experience and some topics may be sensitive to some readers. Some themes included consist of toxic household environments, the loss of loved ones, abusive relationships, suicidal thoughts and actions, and struggling with mental illness.

Perception of an Angel by Hope_Alexandria_Ray

I wrote this book of poems based off my struggles with mental health, heartbreak, and love. I wrote it to help other people who struggle with mental illness as well, I named the book perception of an angel, because I see the people who struggle the most, as angels. And through our perception of things and emotions, we will find our strength. Our reason to live. We got to keep pushing through the hard and find our fight deep inside ourselves, to reach the good, find your good perception and live; ⚠️⚠️⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ⚠️⚠️ ~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!TALKS OF MENTAL HEALTH AND STRUGGLES ALL THAT COMES WITH IT!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~ -BPD -Bipolar -PTSD -other mental health If you or a friend or loved one relates and find yourself struggling please seek help, your life matters, and you matter. Here are some links to help you find support and help if you need it: Crisis Text Line: Text "START" to 741-741 LGBT Youth Suicide Hotline: 1-866-4-U-TREVOR Military Veterans Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-TALK (Press 1) National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) Childhelp (1.800.4ACHILD) ... National Sexual Assault Hotline (1.800.656.HOPE) National domestic violence hotline (1-800.799.SAFE)

The Tragic Tale of A Certain 'Hero' Type by nightwing2

WARNING ⚠️ - This fanfic will have depressive themes such as, suicidal thoughts, self-harm, suicide, verbal/physical abuse, threats of verbal/physical abuse, and eating disorders. If you are at all sensitive to these topics then I employ you to please not read this fanfic, if you don't like it then DO NOT read it. What did I do to deserve this? Why? It hurts...why can't they leave me alone? I'm sorry.... I'm so sorry. (Adopted from Art_n_Gaming_Wonderland) Notes: I've adopted this story and will do the best I can to make it longer. I don't update regularly but I'll do my best. Cross posted to my ao3: KirkBones117 Trigger Warning ⚠️‼️⚠️‼️⚠️‼️: Graphic Suicidal Thoughts and attempt. If you are not in a good mental state, please please please don't not read. If you do and you need help, don't hesitate to reach out to people. I promise that the world needs you. I've been there and unfortunately, still bad days but eventually there will be good days.

All Monsters Are Human by that_1_emokid

; saying goodbye has never been harder. completed. please read the tags first, thank u heads up for the cringe, bc like, this is a lil cringy but otherwise readable also, the chapters are little out of order, idk what happened and i can't fix it Q.Q

Spillage || TW {18+} by october-kitten

Sex, drugs, rock & roll. Alcohol, suicide, and abuse. Trauma. Rylie Lukko has been through an immeasurable amount of pain in her 17 years of life. Violated and manipulated, again and again, she has shut out everyone and everything around her. Enter Drake Andler. The hot and cold dark-haired boy Rylie sets her sights on. Moody, serious, and damaged, just like her. Drake assumes Rylie is desperate and clichè, and finds her very presence to be a nuisance, but she finds his distaste for her intriguing. Soon though, Rylie realizes that Drake can see past her tough facade and slowly starts to uncover the secrets she locked away from everyone--even herself. When Drake starts the break through Rylie's almost impenetrable walls, and all her pain, fear, and anger begins to spill all over him, he is unsure if he can handle it. And Rylie is unsure if she wants help healing. _________________________________________________________________ ***TRIGGER WARNING*** This story has incredibly dark subject matter surrounding domestic abuse, sexual assault, drugs, eating disorders, suicide, and mental health. It has very graphic descriptions that may be triggering to survivors or others dealing with any of the subject matter. *** CURRENTLY BEING REWRITTEN ***

Depression, anxiety, EDs, and other mental health issues. by Esperanza5404

This story is about depression disorders, anxiety disorders, eating disorders, personality disorders, other mental illnesses, self harm, suicide, bullying, and the stigma of mental illness. This book was written to help others and educate people. It is also written to let people know where/how they can get help. I put some of the links to the sites I used. I am NOT glorifying or romantizing any of this. This book is NOT used for diagnosis of any kind as I am not a mental health professional. So PLEASE DONT SELF DIAGNOSE YOURSELF WITH A MENTAL ILLNESS. This book contains sensitive content, so read at your own risk. #breakthestigmaofmentalillness

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Jesse's Girl (COMPLETE)

They had both been dealt enough tragedy in their short teenaged lives, more than anyone should ever have to endure. Will two self destructive teens coming together do more harm than good? ~ I don't know what came over me. The poor guy just asked if he could help and I went all 'crazy psycho bitch' on his ass. I couldn't breath. I needed water. I needed air. Fuck why was is it so hot in here. Was it the fact that the moment his hand left my skin I felt an unbearable need to feel his touch again or was it hearing him ask if I needed help that made me feel helpless and broken once again. I didn't know what it was but I felt like I was suffocating, like the jersey I was wearing was strangling every ounce of oxygen from body. ~ * This story had been reviewed recently. There are now added scenes and further edits - 2024 *