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Borderline

amythestvampire

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Reads 650
Votes 162
Parts 61
Time 51m

amythestvampire

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Borderline is a collection of poems and vent work written by somebody with Borderline Personality Disorder. There is a huge trigger warning as a lot of the poems and vents are very raw and real emotions or experiences that can be triggering to those who are reading. This is an outlet for my thoughts and poetry I was too afraid to show my loved ones, but some may relate. Every thought and poem I have ever wrote will be in here so I have a healthy outlet to cope. To those who read, thank you for listening to my thoughts, even if it's only for a short period. To those who relate, I'm sorry and I hope you get better one day, and I am always here if you need somebody, even though I'm a stranger on the internet. I appreciate every comment, vote, view, etc. Thank you for reading and having a look into my disaster of a brain. 

IF POSTING A SCREENSHOT OR QUOTING ANYTHING WRITTEN IN THIS BOOK, GIVE CREDIT TO @AMYTHESTVAMPIRE ON WATTPAD. IT IS ALL MY OWN WORK AND THOUGHTS.All Rights Reserved

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