I hate him, I hate how much affect he has on me, How he knows every detail about me. I should kill him so I can have some closure for every single tear i've lost because of him, but the thought of that image makes me unable to breathe.
No, No,No,No! I'm not letting him get to me again. I pull myself out of his grip, my shaking hands aiming and preparing to shoot and finally end this nightmare.
But before I have a chance to shoot him he rips the gun out of my hands and he points the gun upwards before the bullet can hit him, throwing it on the floor effortlessly, He holds my wrists above my head pulling his own gun out aiming it to my heart.
I planned all of this just for it to go to waste because I can't fucking kill him even after all he has done to me.
Fucking pathetic!
At this point I'm numb, my tears drip down my face, tears I promised myself I would never waste on him again. It's pathetic how easily I can crumble with a single touch, I finally raise my head to look at him, he stares back at me with uncertainty.
"Shoot me, Kill me once and for all like how you've always planned, I deserve it" He clenched his jaw and squeezed my wrists even tighter as he growls.
"What I do is not for you to decide, only for you to accept like a good little doll" Fuck, this bastard is still controlling me all these years, my anger gets the best of me, I start thrashing against him "Fuck you!" "you bastard! Fucking shoot me or I will do it myself" my tears stream down my face as I pound my hands against his chest screaming like a mad man "Kill me, Kill me, Kill-Mmph!" but before I can finish, he smashes his lips on mine silencing me.
This isn't your typical story.
This is about 2 selfish hearts. Hearts who have destroyed each-other while being completely infatuated with eachother. Will Ronan truly fall for Ares and love him truly without treating him like a doll, while knowing all he's done to him and will Ares forgive Ronan knowing what he's done to him?
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Words.
Everyone takes them for granted, using them non-stop, screaming them, laughing them, blurting them. But what about when they're dying? Are they strong enough to scream out their last words? To laugh out their final sentence? To blurt out the last thing people will remember of them?
Your dying words mean everything. It's what people remember you saying last and it shouldn't be something stupid which if you get used to saying stupid things, I believe you won't have any control of what you say when you die.
So words are valuable, and I, James Hunter, won't waste them.
Of course I'll speak when it's important but I don't think I'll speak for anything other than that.
But I'm dying and I don't want to be, but the choice isn't mine to make. My body- my heart has made up its mind, I'm going to die, I just have to accepting it. And if I'm going to die, I want to be remembered, I want them to visible see my face, feel my touch and hear my voice from my final hours of living. I want my family to know everything I've been holding in and I want my friends to remember me as strong.
So what I'm going to die? Everyone does at one point. I'll just die sooner than expected and medication won't do anything to stop it, only postpone it and I don't want it postponed, when I'm ready... I'm ready and I want my heart to be on the same page as I am.