While I'm Still Breathing
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Ongoing8m
Last published Fri, Nov 20, 2015
A collection of journal entries, memories, and dreams, from a girl, who is on the verge of a mental breakdown and relapse. Suicidal thoughts are always occurring, and hardly stop.She makes a friend who will change her life, or what's left of it, forever.
***Trigger Warning***
This book will have sensitive material, that may be triggering to those who suffer from suicidal thoughts, anxiety, bipolar- disorder, self harm, or any other mental illness really. I have not full planned out what is coursing through this girl's mind yet. But definitely some of the above. So if that makes you uncomfortable, or is going to trigger you please do not read. If you ever anything, message me.
*** ANOTHER DISCLAIMER ***
I am NOT going to romanticize any mental illness. I find that sick. Mental illnesses are not romantic or beautiful. There may be romance, but the conditions will not be romanticized.
Thank you!
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