"I'm so so sorry about what happened" Keigo continued, and his voice sounded even shakier now. Instantly Touya loosened the embrace to look at him, and his heart broke in a million pieces at the sight of Keigo's contrite eyes, holding back whatever question he had when he noticed he wanted to add something else, waiting for him to speak in that low, lulling voice of his, so hushed for only them to hear. "I don't know anything anymore, and I have no damn clue of what we're gonna do from now on," his breathing was heavy, and yet his eyes were so fiery, his voice getting firmer as he stared straight through him, so much certainty in his gaze it almost cut his breath. "But if there's one thing I'm sure about, it's that I want to be with you. I want you, Touya." he said again, like he was trying to find an anchor in those words, and Touya felt like a prey under so much gold. He'd never seen such blazing fierceness in anyone's eyes before, nobody but Keigo's in that exact moment. "I want you so fucking bad-"