White: Its everywhere. My vision, mind and feelings. I can't stop it, only hide it. No one suspects anything and that's the way I want it to stay. I'm not depressed, I've been told my my therapists. Nor do I have anything wrong with the way my mind works. Its just who I am and who I've grown up to be. It's gotten worse. Everything does at one point. I've just got to wait till I fall. TW's - self harm , talk of suicide (if there are any more I will state at the start of the chapters!)