Haunted

When you're young and in love with your 1st love you never think," Oh this person is going to be in my life for the rest of eternity!" You kinda just go with the flow and enjoy the moments as they come and if you grow apart so be it. You don't realize how someone who can alter your life at such a young age can influence you forever. I didn't expect him to be in my life for as long as he was, I didn't expect him to have this hold over me. But he did, he does, he ruined me in every way possible, took me on a rollercoaster of emotions, cheated, lied, manipulated me... Yet here I am, missing him in every way possible, searching the crowd of faces I pass daily to see if I can catch a glimpse of him, becoming a person I swore I would never become because of him. No matter how many times I delete him from my life, I still go running back, and for what? Maybe the person I have manifested in my head to replace the real memories of him. All I know is because of him I am haunted.