Avoidant Personality Disorder or AVPD
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I haven't been diagnosed with AVPD, but I'm sure that I deal with it. It's difficult to socialize with other people when you're a big guy. Couple that with the fact that I think other people judge me in a negative way, It's a recipie for disaster. I have only dated 2 women seriously, but both ended in disaster. Dating scares me because whenever I try to date, I always get rejected. It makes me feel like I'm not wanted, or loved. I met a wonderful girl who I won't name, but she's very sweet and pulling me back into a world where It's okay to show emotions, and have them. Thanks for reading
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