Possible Trigger warnings ⚠️ Anxiety & Panic attacks Sexual content is possible as well It's not the end ... No, I want to say it's the beginning of something. Something I don't know. For years I've felt this doom over me. Starts in the pit of my stomach making me nauseous, to my chest feeling my heart is racing like a horse in the Kentucky Derby. Next my brain, thoughts going million miles a minute. Where one ends another begins like the waves of an ocean. How I wish that ocean could dry up or freeze over and give me the peace I so desperately crave ... Then He comes in ... I notice him, everyone notices him. He notices no one, not really anyway. Only what they can do for him, sees how far they'll push themselves for him. And they do. They push and push, crawling over and backstabbing anyone in their way.