Beautiful life forever

my life ever is a madness,but i need more learn into the life,We even comment mistake and learn of the mistake.I would like it to be go to different world example japan,greace,etc.I wasted my time for sleeping and eating,my throught told me that"never wasted you time and you've changed to your dream ang get to job".I got pay my consequence of my action and learned so much im thankful for my granfather teach me about the life and even he got me advice i was childhood and he care me and i think he is my real father,he'd.My father was alcholic and he begin 17 years old and he leave 38 and now drink again 39 years old.MY father is very adiction,theft,kept and lazy.I remeber my mom and my dad had discution and my father was drunk he hit my mom and my mom hit back and i feel aafraid,i was baby i think 3 years old and never forget this incident.I was Puerto Rico my mom ever go to hangout with the best friend and my grandmother care us when my mom go so far.On the night i was crying beacouse i missed my mom my trought say you need more strong in yourself and keep your own road,she didnt see for us,i think my mom changed because im grow up so much.My brother and sister like reguetoon and i am only like more rock and my mom care they,i'd support scolding,grounded,pain of my feeling,when coming the moment i changed completed and she now can control my decision and my stuff.December 17 2011,i was 14 and i was vacation to orlando and my granfather gift me of my birthday and he say you need more practice and you can archieve you dream and i was dumb but im trying..