into the abyss

I followed the voice to the deep end straight into the abyss, never thought it would end but gladly it did.

The thoughts did not stop right then and there, it went even deeper never would have thought that these certain thoughts will go through my head.

I decided to end it all, finally...

Everything went silent, cold and... dark...

I seem to be in a place where I'm all alone with my thoughts, no one else is here...

Freefalling into darkness, like how the demons are destined to be at the end of everything...

The feeling of the cold air as I fall down deeper into the abyss...

I can't see anything, I can't move, all I can do is feel the air and listen to my own thoughts.

It seems like it will be like this forever, did I make the wrong decision? Did I mess up once again?

But then, a bright light flashed right before my eyes, fortunately, I did find my hope but not the way I expected it to be.

I'm back again, I was afraid, was that all part of a dream? Was it all in my head?

Fortunately this time, I found my hope.. It's not widely respected and prioritized by people nowadays, but, I still chose this because, this is the only thing that filled that emptiness that I have been feeling.

Ever since that day, I never felt hollow, I'm glad that I will never have to experience it again, I'm tired of it, sick of it all.

I think, I might have found the light at the end of the tunnel...

That's what I thought to myself, but then something with my surroundings, seems off...

I'm now afraid of what's to come, I don't trust the future no more.

This collection contains 6 poems:

1. sn
2. into the abyss
3. once again
4. blessed with a curse
5. sinners
6. Theology

-Released on Jun 27 2023-