This Time I Will Never Chase You[UNDER MAJOR EDITING]

"Allison. Enough! I 'don't' like you. And will never be."

I was rooted on my place.

Trembling.

Dazedly gazing at the man who made my heart skips a beat. The man who made me feel alive and happy just the mere sight of him. The man who sent tickles down my stomach with his deep penetrating gaze. The very first man who made me feel what is it to be to love someone.

Yet this very same man is also the first person who made me feel such searing pain within my heart; making me feel suffocated.

A pain that I don't wish to feel ever again.

Hindi ko namalayan na isa-isa na palang naglaglagan ang mga namumuong luha sa aking mga mata habang nakatitig ng mariin sa lalaking kauna-unahan kung minahal, at siyang lalaki ring kauna-unahang nagwasak sa aking puso.

I bit my lower lip. Hindi ako makasagot, para kasing may nakabara sa lalamunan ko.

I tried to utter a single word... but I can't.

I tightly closed my eyes, and took a deep breath.

Forcing my quivering self not to breakdown.

Forcing my aching heart to calm down.

Takte ang sakit.

Ang sakit-sakit sa dibdib. Yung tipong hindi man lang ako makahinga.

Gusto kung magwala pero hindi ko magawa. Gusto kung sumigaw pero hindi ko man lang magawang gumawa ng tunog mula sa'king lalamunan. Gusto ko lang umiyak. Umiyak ng umiyak hanggang sa wala ng mailalabas na luha ang aking mga mata.

Ang sakit!

When I opened my eyes again after organizing my jumbled emotions with much difficulty; they're no longer filled with pain, but only blankness. The heart that was previously suffering from heartache turned cold; as if numb and no longer felt anything.

"Alright," I said listlessly.

Albeit feigning calmness.

Simultaneously, I turned around and left without a second thought. I walked away with decisive steps without halting even just a little bit.

Hindi ako lumingon.

For I was afraid that the moment I would look into his deep eyes again.

My heart would waver.

'This time I would never chase you.'

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