Until I found her.

"Kiss me." She whispered, looking utterly terrified, even in her drunken state.
I shut my eyes and silently cursed the universe for being this cruel.
"I want to." I said, resting my forehead against hers as the war inside me raged on. "Fuck... I want you, Brie. More than I've ever wanted anyone."
I felt, rather than heard her breathing change. I could barely hear anything over the music and the sound of blood pumping in my ears.
"But...?"
I opened my eyes and stared right into her frightened ones.
"If we do this, there's no turning back for me." I admitted. "but once the sun comes up and all the alcohol has left your system, the only thing I'll be to you is a dirty mistake."

~*~

Our paths crossed unexpectedly. She came out of complete left field and falling for her was certainly not part of my plan. Though suddenly, she became the brightest star in my universe... The only problem was Luca, her long term boyfriend. She was never mine for the taking and that should have been enough for me to back off.
I tried to, I genuinely did, but I was helplessly pulled in by an invisible force. Something about being around her felt like sunshine and once you've been stuck in the center of a never-ending storm for as long as I have, a little bit of sunshine was everything you craved.
I was gone for her, long before I knew what was happening.
She was everything I wish I didn't need.
Everything I could never really have.
I thought I was doing fine... Until I met her.