Jay Walker has always been the cheerful and energetic ninja of lightning. He loves cracking jokes, inventing gadgets, and flirting with Nya. But behind his bright smile and confident attitude, he hides a dark secret. He suffers from anxiety, panic attacks, ADHD, and depression. He feels like he is not good enough, not smart enough, not strong enough. He thinks that he is the weakest link of the team, the one who always messes up, the one who is not taken seriously. He does not want to burden his friends with his problems, so he keeps them to himself. He pretends to be happy, even when he is not.
But one day, his mask cracks. He snaps at his friends, he breaks down in tears, he lashes out in anger. He reveals his true feelings, his fears, his doubts, his pain. His friends are shocked and confused. They do not know how to help him, how to comfort him, how to understand him. They realize that they have been neglecting him, ignoring him, hurting him. They feel guilty and sorry. They want to make it up to him, to show him that they care, that they love him, that they need him.
But will it be too late? Will Jay forgive them? Will he accept their help? Will he heal from his wounds? Or will he push them away? Will he isolate himself? Will he give up on himself? Will he lose his spark?
⚠ TW - implied violence / torture - mentioned self-harm - contains swear / blasphemies - blood - depression ⚠
❝ Nya has become part of the sea, merging with her element, leaving her family and loved one behind, making them experience a life without her.. but Jay Walker can't really go forward without thinking all this was wrong, and his fault. when an opportunity presented itself before his eyes to bring her back in flesh and bones, Jay did not give up, even with the help of the ninja or not.. But will everything go as agreed by himself?
⧽ 1° #𝘫𝘢𝘺𝘢 [12/01/2022]
» I'm currently rewriting this story, but I'll change some things, but the plot should always be the same, then I don't know in the future if I will decide to change everything directly.. I decide it because these chapters and grammatical errors trigger me too much for the cringe, I swear.. This version will still be published here (maybe for now)