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When I was drowning that's when I could finally breathe

starryskylover13

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Reads 21
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Parts 3
Time 20m

starryskylover13

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abuse comingout depression friendship highschool lgbtq love romance selfharm teen

El may have a good life, amazing family, close friends, good grades and a roof over her head. But how much does that mean when the smile you wear is fake? 

El puts everyone else before herself, she helps her friends, and never asks for help, but of course, that doesn't come without a cost. 

What happens when El watches everyone else love life, not just survive it? What happens when she finally opens up? She thinks she's unloveable, unworthy, she think's that's what others think of her. Is it all in her head? Or is she right? One hurt friend who needs someone to lean on, leads to discovery, acceptance and maybe, just maybe, love?All Rights Reserved

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