When I was drowning that's when I could finally breathe
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El may have a good life, amazing family, close friends, good grades and a roof over her head. But how much does that mean when the smile you wear is fake?
El puts everyone else before herself, she helps her friends, and never asks for help, but of course, that doesn't come without a cost.
What happens when El watches everyone else love life, not just survive it? What happens when she finally opens up? She thinks she's unloveable, unworthy, she think's that's what others think of her. Is it all in her head? Or is she right? One hurt friend who needs someone to lean on, leads to discovery, acceptance and maybe, just maybe, love?
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"Why do you always avoid my questions?" "I'm not, it's just that there's nothing to say. Who would ever want to date someone they can't even talk to? It's not rocket science. My eyes are weird, and people get tired of me eventually. There's your one-page essay. Now please don't snow me to death .-." "What? All that you just said is a lie. And I should snow you to death for even saying that! I would definitely date you." "...Thanks." 🍒｡･ﾟ♡ﾟ･｡🍓｡･ﾟ♡ﾟ･｡ Dallas Addison had it all; being a talented swimmer and dating the star of the football team, she didn't think she lacked anything in any capacity. Sure, she and her boyfriend had minuscule issues, but which logical relationship didn't have their occasional ups and downs? After landing in Extra Credit class due to a series of mishaps with her grades and attendance, Dallas's turmoil became despair when she became paired with one of the most eccentric people in the entire class. Seriously. Who wore sunglasses to school, much less indoors? When weeks turned into months of working together, series of back-and-forth message threads started to hit closer and closer to home. Suddenly, Dallas realized that maybe her life wasn't as idyllic as she was previously led to believe. || Completed 2023 ✔️ || ©ReeseTory2022
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