A lot will change. I have sacrificed my wants just to have you and add joy to my life and my son's. Everything went fast, so fast. I wish I could have been more prepared about owning you. I wish I have made the right decision. I wish I could have you treated earlier. You could have survived, maybe. However, though up to now, I am saddened, I just thought that it would be a great call for better. Like go on a vacation longer, give myself more time, give more attention to my son, start building my own home, or maybe excel in my career. This is very painful, maybe because I am dumb and not enough for you. I have lots of regrets but I know I did my best. And thank you for giving joy to my son. Those simple walks, wiggles and barks, that makes my son very happy will be missed. But I think this is a turning point to something and a lesson learned. I am sorry I may not be the best furent for you but I know time will come that another you will be there for us - as lively as you were. Iloveyou!