Am i Okay?
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Last published Thu, Aug 24, 2023
"Do you like hurting people, humiliating people and making them feel like shit. Does it make you feel better in anyway, Rain! Because this is not a fucking joke and you don't know how this affects me! Or maybe you do but you just don't care! Why don't you care about me?! Why?! I love you, Rain!" Maddie screamed at me.
I took a puff of my cigarette and blew the smoke out in her face.
TW: swearing, self harm, drug addiction, abuse, toxicity, family drama.
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