DISCLAIMER. i do not wish for this to be romanticized. these are real struggles i am personally dealing with that should NOT be seen as cool or "aesthetically pleasing". especially to those who do not experience this. if you do however, please talk to somebody and get help. i am unable to get help as of now. but i am trying. there are topics that include triggering subjects such as suicide, homicide, cannibalism, death. physical, sexual, and verbal abuse. intoxication of marijuana, and drug use. thoughts that contain said subjects, detailed plans which have never had action taken, profanity, reclaimable slurs (may not be seen often.) paranoid thoughts, r4pe, murder, gun violence, weaponry violence, and more topics within. and YES. there is nsfw in this. so minors coming across this, click off now. or if you wanna be a defiant little shit, do whatever. or click off the stories that visibly have "(18+ warning)" in the title. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.