"No matter what I do, it's never enough. It's killing me slowly with each passing day, and at this point, it's practically taken everything from me. Despite that, I can't stop. I just can't stop..."
Shouto Todoroki develops an eating disorder that quickly consumes his life, and as his depression only worsens, more and more of his repressed trauma begins to bleed through old wounds. Unwilling to burden those around him with the thoughts and habits plaguing him daily, Todoroki feigns his happiness and dons a facade. But when Katsuki Bakugou starts to unravel Todoroki's lies, Todoroki's world also begins to unravel. What happens when Todoroki and Bakugou uncover each other's darkest secrets?
⎯ Trigger warnings ⎯
▪︎ Eating disorders, purging, body dysmorphia
▪︎ Suicidal thoughts/actions/ideations
▪︎ Self-harm and self-destructive behaviors
▪︎ Abuse, murder, gore, violence
▪︎ Toxic, manipulative, and abusive relationships
▪︎ Substance abuse
▪︎ Dehumanization
▪︎ Gaslighting and victim blaming
▪︎ Homophobia
⎯ Notes and disclaimers ⎯
▫︎ Triggers not limited to those listed above.
▫︎ Read at your own discretion.
▫︎ This fic is not intended to promote/encourage any of its dark/sensitive themes/topics.
▫︎ I do not own BNHA/MHA. All credit for the series and its characters goes to Horikoshi Kohei.
"I had everything... I had everything but the thing that, deep down, I wanted the most... I wanted to die."
Not all wars are tangible. Shoto Todoroki might argue that his internal wars are far more excruciating than the traumatizing wars he fought in, but what if the loving support he receives and the damaging coping methods he utilizes aren't enough to save him from the true enemy of his own war?
[Completed on 07/18/21.]
Note:
- **Special thanks to @kairichan13 for the absolute beauty of a cover!**
- This story is not intended to encourage or promote its darker/sensitive themes/topics.
- No Quirks AU.
Disclaimer:
- All credit for the BNHA/MHA characters used goes to Horikoshi Kohei.