A Silent Question

John has always been fond of Paul, but one night, he is shocked by how intense his feelings really are. A wank that goes a bit... far sets off a string of events neither have the words to understand. Paul acts aloof, unbothered. John is tortured and confused. All they do is misread and misinterpret and miscommunicate for weeks. They both desperately miss each other, but neither know how to make sense of what's going on between them. This is a multi chapter story taking place in 1963 from the months of late October to Christmas time.