Did I loved foolishly or I didn't find the right person???

2015 my first breakfast taught me that you can be loved and still cheated on
2018 2nd breakfast taught me that girls can disgrace you at anytime I was broke by then money was the issuer
2020 client started paying, providing every basic needs for babe but that breakfast taught me nothing in this world can satisfy a woman and never beg a woman to love you if you want to be respected or else you will hear words that your mum can't say them to you " my foolishness be your sense"
2021 I fell for one hook up girl the girl was very caring I adviced her, she quit that shit started a new life cleansed her physically and spiritually but that Jezebel did worse
In 2022 I found love but realized she is hiding stuffs from me God being soo good the truth came out but I decided not to let her go. In September 5 2023 she made fun of how she put me in pains and she said I always take things serious that's why I am in pains all the time
Did I loved foolishly or i didn't find the right person???