If I Knew Then
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They say life is a gift. You're supposed to smile and be grateful, but there comes a time when you realize that living a lie is no way to live. And when you reach your lowest, you either go to great extents to feel something, anything, even if pain, or you go to even greater extent to end it all... I opted for the latter. Maybe you would call me foolish. A coward or selfish, even, but I could not continue living the way I did...
In some twisted twist of faith, they want me to come back to life. They want me to help a girl that is soon to share my faith. Amelia Taylor deserves to be saved, but I know that love and friendship don't cure mental illnesses. What can I possibly do to save this girl?
This is a spin off to my novel, For You. Jaxson is Addilyn's spiritual guide in this story.
This story explores mature content of suicide and self-harm, and might be triggering to some. I don't dive into details of self-harm, but it is mentioned.
** Still in the editing process
Canadian suicide crisis line: 9-8-8
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