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Sustenance : self sabotage

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I get in the way of my happy endings. I'm the antagonist of my own life.

This is your brain. This is your brain on drugs.

This first-person narrative follows Louie, an 19-year-old who falls into a tragic addiction to prescription drugs after recovering from a broken arm. This story delves into the deep psyche of a fractured mind in the relentless cycle of self sabotage, touching on topics of self-discovery, abusive relationships, addiction, and moral ambiguities. This story consistently brings up matters of addiction, abuse, trauma, suicidal behavior, and sexual themes that may be triggering or uncomfortable to some, so read at your own discretion. 

This is a rework of a story I wrote when I was 17 lol. My college english class inspired me to revisit it. Hopefully you'll enjoy the juvenile themes done thoroughly with adult pain :)All Rights Reserved

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