𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐫 - 𝐉.𝐆 𝐗 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑 - ★ - Wattpad

𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐫 - 𝐉.𝐆 𝐗 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑

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|| MATURE THEMES: BLOOD/GORE/ SUICIDE ||

"We didn't make out, or do anything. I just remember, I was lonely." 
                  -Salvia Palth
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"You're so pretty." I said breathlessly and his eyes soften at my words. It felt like my heart skipped a beat when I muttered those words out. These feelings that started to sprout, was making me feel like I needed to run, or that I needed to do laps around the house. These feelings were long forgotten, something I haven't felt in a long time, like some foreign feeling. 

"What happened to you? Because I know you didn't just move here for a place to live. Something happened," I try to remain composed, because he was still a drunken man -drunk people say stuff all the time- so I make my way out of his room and he mutters something I never believed would fall out of his mouth. "You're pretty to." 

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